Wednesday, August 22, 2007
It has been some time since my last entry. I realise now that there are some posts that are stuck as drafts. Bugger. Guess they are kinda stale to publish now, so I will leave them there as my personal points of reference.
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Received some really horrid news today, and it puts a whole new perspective on my view towards life and its goals. Reality hurts so bad, it makes happiness seem so falsified.
Happiness. That which we all pursue, can come crashing down into nothingness in an instant of truth and reality. Yet changing your state of mind to accept all that is real defeats what you want to believe in. In truth, we all seek to be happy; but how happy can one be when you realise your life as you know it was a lie? Is being alone and selfish really the better option in life? When trust is lost, how else can one believe?
I have felt the fulfillment and joy of companionship, and the potential for unconditional love, as Danny put it. Yet now I learn by opening your heart completely, the possibility of hurt really bad increases so exponentially that it really is just so scary.
Love - I know I seek it. But now, I am unsure and beginning to be afraid. So unsure that I start to doubt myself and my goals - are they really worth attaining, when in the end, true happiness may never be achieved?
Enjoy The Ride Alone versus The Search for Love.
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