Saturday, August 11, 2007
I am rebuilding myself a block a day.
Setting myself goals every day, I will get by. I hope I can climb over the obstacles of my inertia soon, so that I can face the challenges I set out to do.
A checklist to remind me of all that I want to achieve now. This is who I am so far - lessons learnt from past experiences are slowly forgotten. Like I mentioned earlier on, my complacency and laziness are my largest demons of darkness; now, with sorrow and guilt, they form a formidable alliance.
Just that one little step. That was all I needed to take. The effort was, and still is, minimal; yet I was THAT lazy.
I need to do whatever I have to in order to get by. So now, I write again. I write to discover and understand myself. It has been my way all this while, but I contained it, ignored it, and lost myself. It is really no wonder that having me close to heart distresses people. I need to be earnest and open my heart to those who are willing and wanting in order to fulfill my life.
I missed yours.So now, I write. As much as I can. So that I do not forget my thoughts. My lessons. My desires.
All that being said, this is only part of what I literally write; what I publish online is for the few of you guys to read, to understand who I am, and to watch me grow up alongside with you. For he who helps me as I bleed shall be my comrade.
HLR.
Courage is doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared. - Eddie Rickenbacker
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